•Welcome to my profile .
I don't fit typical labels well; masochistic bottom (primarily physical) is most accurate, but a descriptor really. (To elucidate this point, though I'm accomplished at total submission, labeling myself "maso-bottom" isn't an attribute of my submission; submission is a side-effect of my masochistic need). "Top 5" scenes I enjoy most: S/m, sexual slavery, gangbangs, bondage, and now primal play; all must have an element of pain. 

•Only welcoming: experienced lifestyle dominant Sadists, and MAYBE, just maybe Sadistic Dom/me's under 45...
With strong sexual appetite; pure heart; acute intelligence; keen common sense; and a quick wit. Menial task masters, micro-managerial-control-freaks; touchy-feely types, autodidacts, abusers/users/posers/wannabes, sociopaths, and psychopaths need not apply.

•Synopsis (since we live in an instantaneous gratification culture where being literate is undervalued):...
In the BDSM lifestyle my "role" is, masochistic bottom, atypical submissive, and sex slave. (I have four (4) years intense experience irl/irt). My choices are driven by my extreme masochism and fetishes. I crave pain; it calms me and gets me off; it's cathartic and a rush at the same time. It's akin to how submission is a stress release for many. Why go beyond maso-bottom, past submission to erotic slavery, because the risk of few limits and safe words excites me; and "forced" servitude and sexual slavery turn me on. When I give myself over, it's completely with total relinquishment. The optimal word being "when". It's a release on a primal level that provides me solace feeding my masochism. Of course I have needs, everyone does. I'm a bit A type personality (meticulous, perfectionist, determined, goal oriented, intelligent, and insightful), computer nerd, literary geek and prolific blogger, attractive tomboy, reared as a meager Southerner in religious cult, atheist, USAFA 3 years (finishing at TWU), strong but not willful, and empathetic but not codependent. I will play online occasionally, but won't do cyber relationships.

•I'm well aware of my value and worth and quite wise for my age. I don't lack confidence, self-esteem, or self-discipline. I'm not simpering or insecure. I know who I am and what I need and want. I've experienced more than most and learned from it. Many call me an "old soul".

•I scene with whom I wish as long as they've been vetted by someone I know, or I've done so. I don't respond to trolling (most don't engage my mind) unless they pique my interest or curiosity. I'm not interested in a ltr D/s or M/s 24/7 TPE, in any form again, at least not atm. I prefer the S/m lifestyle aspects. 
I'm not a slave (other than sexual), but interested if you're worthy of worship. 

 
•I believe all of the following (a story about me)...
• "To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering".
• "That which does not kill us makes us stronger".
• "You have your way. I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist".
• "In individuals, insanity is rare; but in groups, parties, nations and epochs, it is the rule".
• "Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster; because if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you".
• "Hope, in reality, is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man".
• "All things are subject to interpretation whichever interpretation prevails at a given time is a function of power and not truth".
• "Faith is not wanting to know what is true".
• "There is not enough love and goodness in the world to permit giving any of it away to imaginary beings".
• "He who cannot give anything away cannot feel anything either".
• "The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself".
-Friedrich Nietzsche
 
 

Anything
BDSM Events
Blindfolds
Blood Play
Bondage
Branding
Breath Play
Canes and Crops
CBT
Chastity Devices
Collar & Lead/Leash
Confinement/Caging
Corporal
Corner Time
Cross Dressing
Cuckolding
Diapers
Electrical Play
Enemas
Eye Restrictions
Exhibitionism
Fire Play
Financial
Foot Worship
Gas Mask
Handcuffs/Shackles
High Heels
Hoods/Masks
Humiliation
Hypnosis
Leashes
Medical Play
Mental Bondage
Needle Play
Nipple Torture
Objectification
Orgasm control
Oral worship
Outdoor bondage
Pony & Puppy Play
Public Play
Role Play
Rubber
Sadism/Masochism
Sissification
Spanking/Paddling
Speech restrictions
Strap-on Play
Watersports
Whips
24/7 Slavery
City:
Austin
State:
Texas
Country:
United States
Zip:
78610
Orientation:
Switch
Gender:
Female
Sexuality:
Bi-sexual
In lifestyle Since:
4-5 years
Marital Status:
Single
Age:
25
Height:
5ft 7in
Body Type:
Average
Hair Color:
Blonde
Eye Color:
Grey
Drink:
Yes
Smoke:
No
Drugs:
No
Ethnicity:
White / Caucasian
Member's ID: 5120
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Member ID:
5143
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Member Rank:
Platinum

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